What To Do. What To Do.

I adore it here, there are absolutely no ifs ands or buts about it. This past week i've been doing a ton of thinking and at the same time, no thinking at all. My mind has wandered everywhere. Including the thought of staying here for 5 years, which is the time it would take me to get citizenship. But I always have such a hard time making plans that involve making a commitment to a place. I've talked to several people, mainly who are not legal yet and I seem to get the same impression. That I could make it here, I would just need to work two or three jobs to do so. Many folks work long days, anywhere from 6am through 10pm and one girl I met from Romania who works three jobs in order to pay her bills. Could I do this? Absolutely. I've done the whole work several jobs at a time bit back home, remember Monica? But I feel like i've left NY in order to not run around like a complete bananahead anymore. 

I want to make art. I want to concentrate for a bit on painting and writing and getting my photo project started. These wants and needs have helped me come to the conclusion that I need to go to Brasil for a bit. Not only will the money I have saved last longer there, but also the net of knowing I can work leaves me a bit more at ease. And as far as i've heard, I can give English classes without needing specific certification. The added bonus? My photo project can't ask for a better place to start! So after a wee bit of pondering i've decided that in March I will fly down to Rio, spend a month with my family and then head down to Florianopolis which I have always been curious about. When I arrive in Brasil I will begin my paperwork to have EU citizenship through Romania since my grandparents on my father's side were born there. The Romanian embassy in Lisboa has mentioned that it might take close to a year in which time I will make art in Brasil as well as build a new portfolio in order to get shop it around for exhibitions and work. I am super excited about everything and feel like it's what I need to do right now. And while I am champion at trying to decipher the future, i've decided i'm leaving that to when it comes...